Something is wrong with me, that I absolutely cannot function early in the morning (I am talking about 4 AM) wheather I have slept well, or not. I cannot react properly to it. It instills an anger in me, I get very stressed, it is a trigger to my OCD that I do NOT know how to stop. So I need to stop doing that under all circumstancces.
There is also something psychological to the messes I make. I need to figure this out.